WELL THE DRAMA IS GONE! And I'm feeling very overwhelmingly happy, and I think it's a mixture of this gorgeous rainy dreadweather and quitting cigarettes. I want to scream. Here are some random photobooth photos!
ok, now I really need to get to business and clean my apt. Kimi (from tan camera)'s staying with me for a week or so!
So I've been using this messenger app called Line, it's pretty popular in Japan but not a lot of people have it here, and funny enough even though I'm the worst at texting, Line is pretty easy to handle. Probably because they helpfully suggest emoji's in place of your words and because since less people have it, I have less to check and worry about. Anyways my friends hosted a party for Line which was a surprise because I didn't know Line was aware of my friends but hey that's the internet for you!!
Here are some of the photos from the party- the second time I've seen eardrummer-backwards dude live on accident haha. Photos by JWNY again!
Pia wearing Damage because she's perfect
This girl from Freak City had an ipad dress that was blowing my mind, plus it was on camera the whole time so dead amazing
Natasha the babe in WIA
The preformance was cool but I'm not gonna lie u guys this party was pretty weird and terrifying
Sina & Palma
Sweet party favors though.
Pia & I, I'm impersonating the fan! Get it ?
Do u get it ?
HEY DO U GET IT ?
Anyways I could post more photos from there but since I didn't stay for long or have the time of my life I don't think there's much of a point, but HEY check out the amazing earrings I'm wearing hey hey hey new NIN3!! So after this ended (which was pretty early, at like, 10), and I finally got Jawny out, we went to the Dripped party which honestly I'm not sure if there are any photos of but it was really fun!! There were indeed lots of my friends there, and it was relatively magical, although I was pretty drunk and confused for a lot of it and just chillin on the couches upstairs with Madeline being hit on by weird dudes and turning them down in silly ways. C'est la vie!! Going to a script reading now for Max Landis's new thingy and I'm nervous cause I have to do things like yell HELP ME! and such. Wish me luck!
First of all let's credit the photog of the night : Jawny . I love him lots
It was bb girl Josephine's first time DJ'ing and she was amazing of course. And the cutest, like always
Sina being babe. She's relatively new in my life but I really like her
AJ & Avalon Lurks keepin the party fired up
I LOVE LEON (ON THE RIGHT) LOOK HOW BABE HE LOOKS, HE KEEPS MY HAIR BABE WITH HIS POWERS OF BABE USE BABE BABE BIBBLY BOB
Josephine, Lucas (Lulo), & Haruna bein perf
Jawny's great at getting me in a corner and making me pose for him lol
Tina is the cutest I really need to shoot her
Look at Luna, she's so babe. She's new in my life as well.. But really close to Lucas, and really likes cows, so I'm betting she's aces.
Ended up stealing my friend's camera and spending the rest of the night filming bootyshakin till Jawny drove me home
Well, Dripped's 3rd anniversary holiday party is tonight and I'm hosting so that should be excellent, and much needed. Doing everything to resist inviting friends with which I'm on weird standing with, which may or may not pertain to other strange and vague text posts. All of my close friends will be there, the other Dripped vendors, and Isabel is in town, so it really has all the makings of a perfect night. I should stop by the store and grab a disposable to document the magic.
But just so you don't think I'm spending my life partying and that's all- woke up this morning two hours before my alarm and went straight to writing (music), using all these strange lingering feelings as major inspiration.
Waking up early felt fine despite staying up late last night planning my life, which I do need to finish (organizational process is very precise and takes time), but I need to jump off the computer now and head to the studio where I lasercut my NIN3 stuff because I'm making different variations, colors, and styles for my earrings. I've been really set on doing some 3D designed jewelry but it may not be very cost effective. Maybe I can just print molds and figure something out? Oh well, just gotta stay motivated to mow through the bump in the road and not give up now that it's gotten confusing. Anyways. See more photos from this party and others here. I won't be tagged though, because I deleted my facebook...
Seriously it's amazing the drama I can create from such insignificant situations. You pick anything apart enough, you're going to find a problem. You'll find whatever you're looking for. All I know is I'm not down to put myself in any more situations where the people I choose to bring closest to me are the ones who unknowingly lean on me the heaviest. When it's like that, I can't help but become the pillar, and sometimes ya girl's gotta feel comfortable enough to lay her head on your shoulder, y'know? People purge is proving to be much easier said than done. Sometime's people who aren't good for you don't want to leave, and I don't want them to either :(
IT'S EASY TO DOUBT!
I NEED TO CONCENTRATE ON MYSELF, NOT THIS WEIRD DRAMA!
Marqui, Ggeisha, and I
Tryna show off the nail ring Taro (Fangophilia) gave me, but it's too dark lol
Captain and I
Gia is on the left, she's the maaajor babe that took the photos of me with the finger waves in my hair.
These photos were taken at the UNVAEL event for Fangophilia- remember when I was obsessing over him like two years ago?? Well we finally got to meet!! He visited LA from Japan and we got to spend a lot of time together because Natalie (Nail_Swag, the one who I became friends with when she started doing my nails, also someone who I met through my obsession over them haha) met him when she was in Japan and helped him a ton while he was here. He's very nice and I'm going to do a pop up in Japan with NIN3 in the summer so I'll be able to go over there and visit him!!
There's a lot of insane stuff to look forward to. It's time to sleep now, let the weird dreams figure out my problems for me.
People purge 2k15 is approaching... Every now and then you need to reassess and make sure everyone you surround yourself with is inspiring and encouraging you to better yourself. I hate doing this so much because I do genuinely love all my friends but now is a crucial time for me and I want to surround myself with people who make me want to be better, not just have fun in the same place. My time in LA is a gift and I'm here because this is the path I decided to take to make my dreams come true. I need creativity and motivation and positivity. I will miss some of you very much, others I may be relieved to be removed from. It's healthy to be selfish sometimes.
It can be hard sometimes to be so unmistakably obviously and inherently different. If you’ve known me my whole life you’d know it’s always been this way. You could take away all the clothes the hair and the nails and it would still be there. I’m never going to fit in. It’s my face, it’s my height, it’s everything. And I’m not saying I’m not okay with that, I used to despise it and now I’m very thankful and this is me and I’m so happy, but as a working actress sometimes it can be upsetting to have to know your type and have to know where you stand and how to sell yourself, and I’m so god damn specific and it’s just reminding me of those years I went through before I accepted myself and it’s upsetting me. I will always be the weird girl. It’s just another reason to be endlessly grateful for those in my life who love me for it and I know ultimately this will help my career in some way anyways. But I’ll always be the weird girl.
Jessi & I munchin on a crunch @ the Glitter Death x Nikki Lipstick party
I'm a fork and Madeline is the girl from Doom Generation!! Ugh I love her so much
Later I went to some after party somewhere (photos by Jawny) & here I am with Ggeisha, Josephine, & Pow
I love this woman so much... So driven, intelligent, fun, and caring. ALL MY LOVE TO U GEISHA
Victor & AJ.
I went home early this night ^^^ (night before Halloween) because I knew the next day was going to be INSANE. And that it was. My friend Max is a facilitator of fun and loaded all of his friends onto one massive party bus, where we planned to attend every party everyone had heard of for the night, all for only a max of 30 MINS! I was most scared of being left behind, but this is a very loving group of people and everyone was accounted for as we left each location. The night was amazing, my favorite Halloween ever, and at separate parties I met a spoon, and a man dressed up as a cook, who also happened to be the voice of Junior on the Cleveland Show and he gave me endless joy by whispering catch phrases in character in my ear. There's a photo of us somewhere. But cellphone photos are much harder to collect than FB photos and I'm just getting back on this blogging horse so W/E
Best Halloween ever, and much better since Brittany was there too. She was the one I knew best on the bus, a new group of friends for me. Since then we've all become much closer. But more on that later.